06 June 2009

I jacked this from the Planetary Society. Its very humbling.

Space Topics: Voyager

An Excerpt from A Pale Blue Dot

by Carl Sagan
Co-founder of The Planetary Society

The Pale Blue Dot of Earth - Detail
Credit: NASA / JPL

This excerpt from A Pale Blue Dot was inspired by an image taken, at Sagan's suggestion, by Voyager 1 on February 14, 1990. As the spacecraft left our planetary neighborhood for the fringes of the solar system, engineers turned it around for one last look at its home planet. Voyager 1 was about 6.4 billion kilometers (4 billion miles) away, and approximately 32 degrees above the ecliptic plane, when it captured this portrait of our world. Caught in the center of scattered light rays (a result of taking the picture so close to the Sun), Earth appears as a tiny point of light, a crescent only 0.12 pixel in size.

Look again at that dot. That's here. That's home. That's us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every "superstar," every "supreme leader," every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there--on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam.

The Earth is a very small stage in a vast cosmic arena. Think of the rivers of blood spilled by all those generals and emperors so that, in glory and triumph, they could become the momentary masters of a fraction of a dot. Think of the endless cruelties visited by the inhabitants of one corner of this pixel on the scarcely distinguishable inhabitants of some other corner, how frequent their misunderstandings, how eager they are to kill one another, how fervent their hatreds.

Our posturings, our imagined self-importance, the delusion that we have some privileged position in the Universe, are challenged by this point of pale light. Our planet is a lonely speck in the great enveloping cosmic dark. In our obscurity, in all this vastness, there is no hint that help will come from elsewhere to save us from ourselves.

The Earth is the only world known so far to harbor life. There is nowhere else, at least in the near future, to which our species could migrate. Visit, yes. Settle, not yet. Like it or not, for the moment the Earth is where we make our stand.

It has been said that astronomy is a humbling and character-building experience. There is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we've ever known.

-- Carl Sagan, Pale Blue Dot, 1994

29 March 2009

The Gustapo has landed.

The G-Parents flew in from Belize, CA on friday. I picked them up at the IAH Bush Airport. They were of course travel fatigued, but it was enormously good to see them. They are my world. They helped raise me and for all entinsive purposes they are my parents. It was great to see them. I dont like the fact the are gone 4 months at a time, but hey if it keeps them young and happy. Go for it I say. You only live once, and when Im 80 i hope I get to do what I want to do. Those people down there give them a purpose, their family in the States doesnt carry that same weight. They havc a purpose and a mission when they are down there. The United States only gives them frustration. Myself included. I guess I am slightly greedy for wanting them all to myself. They are so loving, caring, and they help me so much. I would go crazy without them. 

22 March 2009

Im just a college student living my life, why do we need labels?

I do not know why things tend to go a certain way. A random text message invitation to hang out, innocent enough right? Then an invitation to go to a concert? I has just had three tests and I did well so I said heck yeah. Good times, good drinks, and good environments later, you have a typical outcome. I will not go into too much detail, but it was an adult ending to an adult night. 

The thing is I did not plan on this happening and I am not upset it did. But why do we feel the need to explain or classify our statuses? Why does this action need to be explained or elaborated on?

Why can't we just say we had fun and go from there? Why does everything have to be defined, why must I go through the awkwardness? ARG! 

19 March 2009

Getting in shape for me and my father and my manhood

One of the self improvment projects I started over spring break is a vigorous workout program. I plan on not only getting in shape, but also I plan on getting ripped. I am allready in a decent shape, but I want to be able to to be happy with my body when I take my shirt off this summer. I have been working out every other day. I am starting to notice results in my arms and now I am starting the chest so I can stay balanced. 

I started this in conjunction with drinking less coke and more water. SO far I am noticed a little improvement, if only my father figures in my life could see this , they wouldnt make fun of my ass anymore! That was my main motivation for starting this. I went to see my dad while he was in Houston for the weekend. He ragged me for being scrawny and he didnt want his son being pushed around. I took it pretty hard, the hardest person to take critizism from is your dad if you a man that is. Because it he is half you and if hes making fun of you then he has a right too. So I went to wal-mart and bought some weight gainer/creatine and started humping it. For my size I think Im doing pretty good.
I got to work my pecs more heh.

Being put down by your dad is hard to handle its like an attack on our manhood.
So here I come dad.....

15 March 2009

Spring Break is almost over............ bout time

Tomorrow school starts back up again and I am relieved. Spring break always brings up feelings I don't particularly enjoy. Idle time make the mind wonder from its goals and from reality. I just don't like it. It messes up the schedule and rhythm of the year. Now I am going to have to get back into the groove, or should I say create a new groove (starting some self improving life changes).

This spring break I was lonely, real lonely. I realized how much my life has changed now living in Beaumont. My old friends that I had from my high school days here in Southeast Texas have all moved, gotten married, or failed to evolve from their high school state of mind. These three things have successfully depleted my friend reserves. Also, the friends I have made on campus here were of course all gone for the break. 

The result was a lonely, random, thought provoking, and self reflecting week. I have thought of some ways to improve my life. I wont bloviate about that here, yet. One thing that was relatively nice about  Spring Break is how quiet and peaceful it was on campus. That's changing as the onslaught of returning students has disrupted my serenity. An invasion of irrational, over horomoned, and rowdy students that are more concerned about their lives then their school. I'm not saying that people shouldn't have fun, but please take into considerations the people who are here to go to school in a peaceful environment. People that live on campus should be the most studious. I don't think that is the case though.

Back to the grind babe.

13 March 2009

Lyrics that move me..... Music keeps me sane.

Artist: Lustral

Song: Broken

In every heart there is regret
But they soon repair and don't forget
The deepest songs that life then fears
Through the pain, through the years
These are the thoughts that I conceal
Though my eyes can't hide the way I feel
There are no angels at my side
I am weak, I am tired

Because I miss you
You know it's true
I am broken
Do you miss me too?
Can we recapture
The life we knew?
I am broken
I am missing you

I am afraid of what I see
When my world is safe, what I dream
I do not shed a single tear
When I sleep, you are here


Artist: Oxygen
Title: Am I On Your Mind


Am I somewhere in the corners of your mind? 
Do you see me when you close your eyes at night? 
I will love you 'till the sun no longer shines 
Am I far away or am I on your mind?


Artist: Ligaya

Song: Gouryella

This is the first day of my life 
For once I'm sure 
That this is where I long to be 
No need to know 
If there is something more than this 
No need to go 
Cause there is nothing more than this 
My future is so clear 
Cause everything's right here 
Inside of me 
Inside of me


Artist: Lustral 

Song: Everytime I close my eyes


Can you hear me,
Talking in my mind.
I can feel you,
You're with me all the time.

Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.
Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face

There's a warm sky,
covering the night.
In the darkness,
I only feel the light.
Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.
Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.
Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.

When I'm lonely,
your voice is in my head. 
And my memory feeds my soul,
with all the things you've said.

Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.
Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.

Everytime I close my eyes,
I see your face.


Artist: Sarah McLachlan

Song: I love you


I have a smile

Stretched from ear to ear

To see you walking  down the road

 We meet at the lights I stare for a while

 The world around us disappears 

It's just you and me

 On the island of hope

A breath between us 

could be miles 

Let me surround you

My sea to your shore

 Let me be the calm you seek

  Oh and every time

 I'm close to you

There's too much

I can't say

And you just walk away

  And I forgot

 To tell you

 I love you

And the night's Too long

 And cold here

Without you

I grieve in my condition

 For I cannot find  the words to say

  I need you so 

Oh and every time

 I'm close to you

There's too much

I can't say

 And you just walk away

  And I forgot

 To tell you I love you

 And the night's

Too long

And cold here

 Without you

 I grieve in my condition

 For I cannot find  the words to say

  I need you so

06 March 2009

Spring Break....

Spring Break.

The word brings conflicting emotions. A week of time to kill is kind of scary. I have been in such a routine that this will be completely foreign to me.  Spring break brings life to a stop. The University provides my schooling and my job. 

Staying busy is what keeps me sane, considering I have not established a network of friends at this school yet. Guess that's my fault. I have a few friends, but not very many that stay on campus. Most people on campus, this including my roommate are more concerned with their social life than their educations. I guess that's the problem with being a 23(24 in May) year old still in undergraduate school. 

They might be where I am one day. When I was 18-21 I did not care about my education either.

Live and Learn. Usually the hard way.